I don't know how to title this, and I don't really even know if I'll publish it. Nobody reads it, so it really doesn't matter.
When I started this mess, I felt like I wanted a place to literally take the filter/mask off and just be really real. I wanted to do it anonymously, but in reality, there is no anonymous. Not really.
We have had so much go on lately, that I doubt I can fill in all the blanks, and not really sure that I want to, but I'm going to type some things anyway.
I have been really, really ticked at God lately. Silly, right? I mean, where does that really get anybody? Nowhere. Nowhere, but frustrated, aggravated, edgy, whatever else you wanna throw in there.
We are in a place we've never been. But once I really type that out, I think we've been here before. We are in the same place we always are in. The only thing that changes is the physical appearance. And the physical appearance is not really the truth. The truth is where we are spiritually, and that is seated at the right hand of the Father, in Christ. I'm talking in circles. It's just so frustrating to not see the Kingdom coming forth into our natural realm. And what is that supposed to look like anyway? I know what it is supposed to look like, or what I think it's supposed to look like, but it hasn't happened. Or has it?
Maybe we are just set up for the biggest miracle of all with all of this. And maybe that is how God wants me to look at it. Maybe?
