Here we are again

I'm learning and learning and re-learning how not to worry.


I know that we need a financial miracle right now.  We've needed them before and they've always come through.  I don't know how or when, but we will get another one.  


We have so much stuff that needs to be paid for right now.  We have basically all our bills and now our mortgage.  The GI bill wasn't enough to pay for the mortgage.  Combined with the VA Disability, it is, but not and pay other bills too.  I had already set up our AT&T phone bill to come out of that account when it hit, so some of that is already gone.  Plus, I had to set up a payday advance to Wells Fargo so that it could cover Jose's money that we owed him.  So now, David's paycheck that hit last Friday was immediately docked $200.00.  


Our water, electric and gas bills are due right now, along with the mortgage payment.


We have seen so many financial miracles, that I don't even understand why I would even begin to worry.  


We've had to spend so much money on Emily in the past month that it's ridiculous.  And there's more needed coming up.  Every doctor's visit is $30.  Every prescription is $25.  Every therapist's session is $25.  


God already has provision in place for us.  It's right where we need it, right when we need it.  He also has the exact, perfect amount set out.


There are some things I know God showed me in my spirit.  When all this started, and our house first went into foreclosure, way back when, I had been driving and praying in the spirit about it.  I had a little communion thingy in my purse (need more of those), and felt I should take it.  I saw a vision of our house (I wish I could draw it).  It was a cartoon-looking drawing of our house.  Our house was covered by a plant that came up out of the middle of it and its huge leaves were overlapping each other and making a covering that anything that hit would roll off like water.  I could also see under the ground and there was an amazing, huge root system.  I know our house is covered.  I know it's a safe place.  


1 Timothy 5:8 says...But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he has denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel. 


My sweet husband used to really struggle with this verse.  God showed him that He Himself (God) is worse than an infidel if He does not provide for those of His own house.  


(I don't know why I can't get the font to match up, but I can't.  Oh, well.)


Just thinking this morning.  Josh is up now, so I'm gonna snuggle before everybody else gets up.  :-)